i seldom reply his messages & he knows about it. he just let it be. i know he felt hurt about it. for some reason i felt something apart. its like we werent that close as last time. we were happy and fresh at it & i missed it. i tried to let him go, last time, but i just couldnt. im trapped in his game. game? hmm. i trust him alot, more than he think i am. i never lied to him.

only on that one day, i did lied to him. i lied to him that i loved him. and so i told him after that, it may crushed his heart & i felt really bad after that. i actually cried into tears. i felt awful for not loving him for a moment.

he's all i wanted & i wont let anyone else change that.

i may sound like a lunatic, but im in love with the person whose ive been looking for. i love everything about him. i dont care about fame or money, like i said before. its him that i want.

How deep is your love ♥

weeks ive never webcam with him. we just online & chat just like any other boring people. HAHA! but i know he missed the way it used to be. im just greatfull that i owned him. he actually waited for me. :'D well last night was kinda cute. he sms-ed me after he had a nightmare. he wrote "theres a monster in Philippines trying to kill us b" & when i read that, i was like, awww :D

i know i was suppose to stay awake last night just for him. but my eyes just shut & when i got up i couldnt find my phone. i was so panic! then i stood still & took a deep breath & there was it. on the table near the book shelf. i checked the last message i receive. i didnt put it there but thank god my sister didnt read the messages but she may probably saw the first two letters. ex "sayang you..". i hope she didnt babble about it to my parents.

if only i could just be with him right now. under his arms. well its just another 2 weeks & i'll meet him at the train station that we promised. i know it seems kinda lame to you guys. but this is just love. :) im under his spell. i love my prince charming so much! ♥

i had an argument with my mama today. she wanted to go buy bras for me but i said we dont have much time because i have science at 2 oclock. technically i didnt on my 013 so i didnt know the class have been cancelled. my mum didnt talk to me since morning till 6 oclock just now.

anyways everything is back to normal now.

:) thank god

his quote will be "i dont have much, are you sure you can survive with me?"

& i will reply him "i dont need money, money can just come & go if i make an effort, but i need somebody to guide & depend on, which is you"

how stupid am i to trust a stranger, well this is different. at least he's not a stranger that i have no connections to. we have some mutual friends. & to maintain this long distance relationship is kinda hard at first but we kept it cool till now. its almost like we've known each other for so long but we've been this close for 13 weeks. i hope we can go through this relationship even longer. i don't want it to end. sometimes my friend asks what do i see in this guy & i just smile and say 'he's unlike the others i met, i love him because of his honesty and just being himself + he loves me for who i am'

you guys must be realize that we put our relationship status as married :) well the story goes like this, i was panicking about my history & all. before we chat he asked me why im married alone in facebook (before that i was married to jani) then i told him jani may probably deleted her facebook. then i just off my msn because something came up. then he sms-ed me to change my status for awhile, & so i did. when i came on9 on my facebook i see a relationship invitation. it was from him. :)

i couldnt smile any wider when im with him, its just im happy. :D

tías

i just baru balik from a kenduri & then came this wonderful lady. she's around 20+ & still studying in UK. She is what everyone wants.



1st aunt: "look at that girl, very smart & well spoken"

2nd aunt: "maisarah, you should be like her"

1st aunt: "look at that, she did her chores very fast & without other people asked her to"

2nd aunt: "why cant my daughters be just like her."

1st aunt: " you girls should be just like her" (pointing towards me & my cousin)







all i wanna say is, WHY MUST WE BE LIKE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WANTS! i already love of what ive become. :)

Professional Dreamer?

i had a dream of one of the guys from the jonas brothers -.- YES, the jonas brother. well all the 3 of them were there but the one with the sparkles is joe (ahh). they look exactly in the pic above. i think its because i dont really like the new jonas brothers. the one with the tuxido suit (ugh!)

Anyways, here it goes, i was walking around the park near my house. then i heard like a sirent. it sounded like an ambulence, but i didnt give a damn about it. so i just walk & walk. then i see a cab facing in front of my house. guess whose inside the cab? yeah JOE :) the short mohawk hair with a hyper attitude guy. the others were there but they were sleeping at the back sit. oh & the driver is just an indian fella.

so they have been infront of my house for so long. & so i just keep walking & went to my neighbours house. i wanted to go to him :( but i was too shy. so i just sit down on the road. then the cab moved slowly. its like he was finding somebody from my house. so i just stay still, then suddenly joe came out :D (hubba hubba) but he wanted me to go away because the driver wanted to park at the place. then i got mad, because the way he told me was kinda hush.

then.. thats just it :)

quieres vivir?

Mau hidup atau tidak?
SPM

12 hari

sebelum tu, ahwiwiwiwiwiwi -.-
apa masalah aku ni?

El mejor que he tenido

i think the slow version is better :)

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kenapa lah nama nak lebih kurang juga -.-

dos es mejor que uno

a day without him, would be impossible for me to live.

it was about 10.30 something like that. i went back home, & as usual he'll sms me :) so we sms & sms while i was doing some exercises. then he asked me wether he wanted to go on9 & chat over there or just stay smsing. so i said i can go on9 but it will be bit late.

about 12 something we on9 with each other. he serenated me but then i felt kinda sleepy, well not really, actually i felt soooooo freakin sleepy until i fall asleep at 1 while we were skyping with each other. he called me so many times but i couldnt hear him, i was in my dreamy land. my comp was still on till 5 oclock. konklusinya, he have been webcam-ing with me for 5 freakin hours without me responding anything back. i dont know how he can stand me. he even called me 42 times through my phone. pity him, i put my phone on silent at that time. & about 11 something in the morning he sms-ed me back. i was shocked, i thought he would be mad at me. but he just take it cool.

im glad that i owned him. i really do. for all the guy ive been with, he's the only guy that i cant take my eyes off or i just cant stop smsing with him. i wish i could just wake up every morning & listen to his voice. i dont want to lose him, ever.

he just mo anáil uaidh